Trying For Water

All the time.
I do this all the time.
I offer my heart to people and accept that they don't want it.
Constantly apologizing to the world for feeling what I feel and working around the things that the object of my heart wants because I hope that someday she will turn around and want me as much as I want her.
But that is not the way it works.
That is not the way of the world.
So why?
Why do I do that?
Why do I accept things that are less than what I want?
I think I just answered that.
I believe that people will come around and see my heart and what I offer for what it is. They don't.
They see what they want to see.  Feel what they want to feel.
You can't force a flower to bloom. You can water it. You can put it in the sun. You can't make it grow.
So I try and be something else. I try and be water.
I can be water.
I can flow. I can mold. I can relax and just be.
But I will always want love.
It just sucks feeling like the people I love don't and may not feel the same way I feel.
Those that do break me.
I am feeling low.
So I write like this.
I am confused and hurt and confused. So many questions and not nearly enough answers.